08 MAY 2008 peter pan

you kept me up when i fall down
but you blew the stars away that i'm catching
then you climbed the moon to tell me how i'm beautiful
to be on the sun
the centre of the universe
you took my hands and leap on the rocks
take me to the fantasy
and there i am
wearing the crown of your heart
beds of roses right before me
then i started to fall, sinking
right into you

another blink of eye
made me realize
the new angel held tight in your arms
falling from the sky
there's no more tears to dry
finding a way to calm

so i play by ear
the secret song of a broken hearted girl

titled :: *shh!

its our story that doesn't start with a starter
its our story that i hoped would just never end
i wanna be in the scene
where on our way there's nothing stands
and i wish we cud stay be

another day another chapter
another smile another laughter
it is sweet when we dreamt of the future
iti s sweet when we went through the past
and it's just sweet that we're still here in the present

no more pretend
i let you wander around the truth
for you to see me just through

another frown stays on you forehead
your eyes looked down and i finally said
"hold me baby, i got my trust on you"
and then we hold hands and things got intense
sudden silence but we both understand

30/04/2008

I've never seen the sky so blue
until the day comes when we meet again
back then it was me and you
only the oceans are blue but the sky was gray
so the waves go waving along the sand
now it's a we, an us and nothing stands
on our way to survive this
we kept it long ago but it didn't just go
it stays until we get the first kiss
we were broken by those who let us go
but we've never known the bliss existed between us
we were there for each other
i cried on your shoulder and you cried on mine


its not that i wanna spell it out for you
but just yesterday i woke up
and suddenly felt like calling you
i realized by then
that i was made for you

stay away

i care for the one i love
i care for the one i need
i care for the one..the chosen one
we lived today as we met
we dried tears with our sweet laughs
we kissed the pain away when we locked our smiles
end it please with a never ending bliss
oh..agony. stay away from our heaven
we dare not to burn it to ashes
we dare not to make it final
as we are dreaming our hearts, its obvious

O LORD..dun make our senses dried of happiness
so that we cud get the the signal
until then
we dare not to make it final

i've posted it

make an end properly or erase it and just start over,remember?

i see sunshines coming over
i see pouring rain before the summer
and then cloudless sky with rainbows of colour
i seek anger and get smiled at
i seek for revenge and get loved, fortunate
you came early
realizing you saved me
i don't need superheroes
when you're there backing up the flows
i laughed
i smiled
i dare to swear
that tears have stopped haunting to scare

so this time
i never want to make a proper end
nor erasing memories

so, please tell him, mr shiny star
"i'm always here where you are"

kryptonite

i'm starting fall into
a deep conversation
as he saw me through
laugh with me
smile with me
shed tears away that stained
nor the pain remained
i kept myself to secret
and for once
you were the kryptonite
that weakens me all the way
losen the facts held tight
losen the strength i stood for the right
made the word kept spitted out
made me fall to pieces
and i cried
right beside the window of happiness
thanking GOD that i found you



inspiration :: kini

deceiving

trust deceived
sounds like normal to me
until he end i did
stay and go with the melody

people hating
sounds like heaven to me
another choice for wandering
around the world solemnly

as much as you feel
as much as i think
things happening are real
and words blurt out on everything

lies within never try to control
watches ticking handling the time
indeed, it's the time i fall
begging forgiveness on the most possible crimes

i stayed for the reasons i can see
as heaven speaks you make me said
love, will you please keep me in strength
or just maybe
keep me standing till i lay on the bed

tunjukkan aku - boneca

Musik dari jiwa
Lagu dari hati
Cerita sepurnama
Canda dan menangis

Belum ku selami
Caturan terjadi
Lelah dipukul badai
Apa mungkin terlerai?

Oh...

Soalan tersendu
Balas hampa bisu
Tuhan, tunjuk sesuatu
Apa dia yang satu itu?

Tunjukkan aku
Tunjukkan aku

Apa bisa ku cinta
Kamu seperti mana
Aku dicinta kamu?
Aku dijaga kamu?
Atau kamu terlalu
Indah buat diriku?
Beda dari diriku?
Aku pun tak menahu

Aku pun tak menahu
Aku pun tak menahu

Apa bisa ku cinta?
Apa bisa ku cinta?
Apa bisa ku cinta?

Tuhan, tunjukkan aku


*furqon

whispering names
thriving help
i'm sitting...just right at the corner
wondering if people could see me through
i lay low, thinking
will they notice if i live
will they just notice if i die
if i summon happiness to survive
will they even hear my cry?
endless pain resorts to live
silently condemning the blissful laugh
Ya..Allah
give me the strength to be deaf
give me the strength to be blinded
so i can see nor listen to nobody
i let the scent of roses on the air for them to enjoy
but it doesn't seem to make better lives worth living
maybe i should just fade it away
at least it'll change nothing..


situation :: dun ask

sorry

eyt, it's been so long that i've updated this thing. sorry meyh...but ever since i didn't have any ideas left. those that i've wrote was all my sorrows from my former breakup scene. ha-ha. but i'll try my best tp find some new materials. even now i had this scar pain from my last appendix operation. it was bloody hurtful that i cried for the pain. i'll try to find some of ideas from it. lol! till then, tata~


xoxo

1645H - katel - dorm - game parade

imma pass out the crown
to the new princess
but i need to first warn
cinderella's don't always have a happy ending
well, sometimes,
they're just meant to be at the chimney
living their lives; their destiny
now that i could fall back to reality
let me rest from the seconds i wasted
let me breath for the wounds wanna heal
let me open up my eyes for the sake of reality
let it speak thruogh the pain
let it heal the pain i've gained
so it would all go away
away with the wind it would go by
so i could just stay




inspiration :: the last poetry

0955H BK02-05 MALAYSIAN NATIONHOOD

it reckons to know that i lived for love
but yet you turned the blue sky grey
mists from heaven must've mistaken
this sky shouldn't be mine

you said you loved me
more than i did
you said you wanna be with me
more than i wanted
but the grey sky told me different
you turned me down with the gloomy scent

i smelt the darkness
the view of agony
i reached the hell of happiness
watching you smile; with no pretend
while i'm here faking smiles to get over the past
of things i hoped; for it didn't last

the shoes

these shoes i'm wearing

it suddenly doesn't fit any longer

so i stepped out of the shoes

as i'm not the cinderella anymore

please... take care of the prince, new cinderella

he might slipped off but never let him go

waste him not for the sake of love


inspiration :: teardrops on my guitar + love story

somebody save me

i don't cry for undenials
i don't laugh of insults
i don't think for regrets
i don't make fool of the whole set
i don't walk away from my life
i don't give up for the one i love
i don't catch drama's in the middle of a war
i don't fool myself to catch up laughters
i don't waste time on losers
i don't do judgementals
i don't take notice of the big issues
i don't keep the hurtful memories
cz i don't clean them when times go wrong

memories are just meant to be remembered
it was blissful yet undeniably hurtful
never to realize it controls your posession and position
i turn to YOU when there's no where to turn to
i pray for YOU to come and save me
save me from myself...

BAU - WARKAH

takkan lagi aku menunggumu
kau hadir dalam mimpi-mimpiku
puasku mengharapkan dirimu
seperti mereka yang punya cinta
diriku... tanpa dirimu
kau tempuhi dengan bahagia
diriku mahu kau tahu
pedih ini kau tak terasa
warkahku mengharapkan dirimu
seperti setianya kepada dirimu
tapiku melepaskanmu
malangkah namun tak berdaya
terus ku terus menunggu
cinta yang takkan pernah ada
tapiku melepaskanmu
melangkah namun tak berdaya
terus ku terus menunggu
cinta yang takkan pernah ada

04 0930H FEBRUARY 2009 - let's play pretend

i don't want to forget our memories
i want it to be erased

so make an end properly
or we could just start again
a simple hello would've make me stay
but the goodbye you gave me that hurts the most
overlapthe dream we just had
so no one gets confused
as we has so many stories
let's choose one and show it to them
let them wander around the greatest things
let them see the blissful world around them

because i don't want to forget our memories
i want it to be erased



situation :: now

0815H klas 2-5 (malaysian nationhood)

i kept my words
as footsteps grinding away
with the bell ringing
i kept quite
calm... steady
the metaphor's getting lunatic
it's weighty and exquisite
yet i stayed; defined

i was left undone
that it took a bed of roses
to calm me down
it took thousands of thorns
to hurt me at all
but a single word from you
to let me die

*because i was left undone
and yet i stayed; defined

situation :: to be hurt with emptiness

you are the most beautiful poetry

i wanted to make you understand how i feel. but no matter how hard i tried, i couldn't. i tried for days. the more i write, the more empty my words sounded. et first, i felt panic. i couldn't sleep for many days. but then, the panic goes away everytime i see yor face, or just heard your voice. i used to write poetry becauese to me, it was likw riting letters to GOD; to tell someone i couldn't see how i felt inside. then finally GOD replied. with a poem more beautiful than anything i had ever written. He gave me you.

you are my poetry from GOD. let hear your voice. please call me. i will be waiting. just call me. so ican sleep peacefully again.


:: a script taken from SEPET. Jason's lines.

fix you

and i think i said what i wasn't
things turned out hard
when i'm about to reached the sky
i lose my strength
i fall to pieces
everytime i saw your face
i found my life
retoricly undeniable to sickness
i walked away of life
as you went away and scared me to death
i nearly gave up
to see the world spinning
to see people changing
to see kids grow up
to see the laughs and cry
to feel the ending of a love story
so it ends without hurting
so it hurts without feeling
so i felt without crying
so i cry without tears

then i fall back into the reality
i was given a chance to feel again


inspiration :: now

disappeared

your lips are sealed with broken glasses
makes me bleed each time we kissed
your heart is coated with thorns
hurting me all along i'm loving you
your sweet words are dipped into poisons
killling me each time i heard you say that you love me

i walked slowly into the dreamworld you promised me
then i saw you there smiling to me
i tried to run and catch you
but you seem to be closer but further
further away it became dramatic
things go wild and changes have tied
you waved your hands put your hands out
i tried to reach but suddenly
i found you another angel standing behind you
made me want to stop catching you
but i really can't stop
my heart is pounding faster but slower at the same time
a glimpse of our memory counts in my head
my eyes blinked with teardrops dropping
i kept on running in blur
then i realized
that i have disappeared in the world we created

inspiration :: the "last" one