kelly clarkson - already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

lost

for now, i don't have anything to write. mayeb bcz i've lost my inspiration. i've lost the soul that has been keeping me writing. i'm not sad nor happy. i'm just confused. i know what the hell went wrong but i don't know how to fix it. so, till things are fixed. i'm off to my final exam. wish me luck!

test 2 calculus 23rd march 09

when it's all complains
and tears strains
so i just wanna run away
wonders of thought
crying out loud
help me stand through this day

so, i keep running, i keep running
just, how far this never ends
i fear i'll never touch
the sky is near but it's all pretend

i need to feel
this numbness pain
flowing through my vein
to live without your highest pride
i failed to catch a breath

a long lost friend

it's everything it is now
another roadway to be stared at
another hands to be shivered
and another pair of eye to be distinguished

a long lost friend said goodbye without a tear
a long lost friend said hello again in silence
hello, insecure. welcome back in joining the club.

the gloomy sunday

it's the gloomy sunday again
and i feel restrain

the watch ticks time
with no mercy, no boundaries
i saw you at the corner of the time
so i turned away

"why'd you turn away?", you asked.
i looked at you, silently with eyes full of diamonds
a cuddle nights onto me
"don't cry, i'm here", you always said

starry nights showed haow many questions i've been
wanting to ask
but the cloud always kept me silent
it was dark, it's what i'm afraid of
and the moon, she tried to calm me
either her, nor you, i lost myself already

since it's the gloomy sunday again
oh God, please.. don't let it rain.

i am lucky.

if i had to go with the tears for a thousand years,
just to make you happy,
i definitely would.
and i will never let you know if it hurts or bliss me.
because either way,
i am happy
and i will always smile and laugh in your dear wonderful sights of view..
so that each time you could see me, hear me, have me..
you will always know how happy i am
just to be with you.

do re mi fa so la ti do

hey, you
do you remember that moment?
when we used to talk and laugh?

hey, you
do you remember that smile?
the craziest that made me go wild?

oh, i do
i always do

now if i could ask for one more chance
to stand up and see your glance
i'd fight for it
i'd die for it
just be with me again

hey, you
i still remember that feeling
it brought tears while the watch is ticking

oh, i do
i always do

now if i could ask for one more chance
to stand up and see your glance
i'd fight for it
i'd die for it
will you be with me again?

another sorry

actually,i have tons of poems to post but since there are certain things that i think would hurt some people if i post them, i take the decision not to. i'll try to make some other pieces that's universal. soon! wait for it!

xoxo

To Me - Otsuka Ai

ねぇ 君は誰　どうして　そんなところで
ヒザを抱え込んで泣いているの？
あぁ 君はいつかの僕だ
自分だけ置いてきぼり　悲しいんだね

風と緑と戯れたっけなぁ
裸足で噛んだ大地は優しくて
夢を描いた　果てしないまま
いつか途切れると　知らないまま

誰もがそれぞれに痛みを背負って
繰り返す今日を　必死で生きている
上手に歩けるさ コンクリートの道の上
土と風の匂いに振り返りながら

君が君自身を信じれないでさ
誰が君のことを信じるの？
自信をもっていいはずさ　もう一度勇気を振り絞る

疑いはしないさ　この道の行方
いつかたどり着ける　そう信じていく
裸足で歩くのは少し冷たくて
くじけそうになる日もあるんだろう

誰もがそれぞれに痛みを背負って
繰り返す今日を　必死で生きている
上手に歩けるさ コンクリートの道の上
土と風の匂いに振り返りながら

歩いてく

Translation:
hey, who are you? why are you in that sort of place,
hugging your knees and crying?
...you are the way I am sometimes
you're sad from being the only one left behind, aren't you?

frollicking with the wind and greenery
the earth is kind upon your bare feet
the endless sketched dream as it is...
...as it is not knowing that it would end someday

everyone, as individuals, carrying with them pain
desperately living the repetition of today
able to walk skillfully upon the concrete streets
the fragrance of earth and wind causing you to look over your shoulder

you can't believe in yourself...
who would believe in you?
it should be ok to have confidence... one more time, muster up courage

I don't doubt where this road is heading
I will get there someday, I go on believing so
There may be some days you want to give up
because it is a little too cold to walk barefooted...

everyone, as individuals, carrying with them pain
desperately living the repetition of today
able to walk skillfully upon the concrete streets
the fragrance of earth and wind causing you to look over your shoulder

continue to walk onward

missing you

i've configured things between you and me
and i kept the settling down inside my head
so i found away
it keeps on hurting
but to me its as sweet as it is
missing you is waiting for heaven to come

i don't need to be yuna to be cool
i don't need marie' digby to refer a song for you
i don't want to sing as they do
but i just want to be the song for you
so that it's enough to make you smile, cry and smile again
i don't want to play the guitar chords
and make rhythms for you
because i want to be the rhythm of you
its a denial for me to make songs about you
because i am you

do you know?

do you know
how much i love you when i'm in love with you?

do you know
if i have to be stupid to make you happy then, i would
do you know
if i have to chase a star to make you stay then, i would
do you know,
if i have to cut my hair to get your attention then, i would
do you know,
if i have to choose you from a high heel then, i would
do you know,
if i had to smile big in my sadness to make you smile then, i would
do you know,
if i have to wander the whole world to find happiness for you then, i would

do you know,
that i wouldn't change you for anything in the world
in fact, the world it self
and do you know,
if i wanna leave you i wouldn't write this such thing.

i miss you [04:23 30 MAY 2009]

as much as i miss you
i'm hoping that you know

i wanna hold your hands
be the shoulder when you needed one
i wanna give a little hug
hoping it'll make you better
i wanna give a simple kiss
hoping it'll change your view

i wanna be with you
with all the love we have
surrounded..
i wanted to just see you
for at least
i can see you smile
ended, the word will never be...

i'd choose you

if i had to face the world alone with a person to choose
i'd choose you
if had to run along with the world with a person to choose
i'd choose you
if i had to fake my smiles n be around them with a person to choose
i'd choose you
if had to open up my heart n let it be taken up of a person to choose
i'd choose you
if i had to figure things out with a person to choose
i'd choose you
if i had to climb an uphill mountain with a person to choose
i'd choose you
if i had to color the view of my destiny with a person to choose
i'd choose you
if i had to choose a person to warm up the sky for me
i'd choose you

i believe in miracles [18:50 May 23rd, 09]

another silence
and i kept on wondering
wonders..wonders..wonders..

remain silent
as i'm forgetting the noises
forgive..forget..forgotten

i believe in miracle
the second i found you
all problems settled
and we're enjoying the view

we go with the flow
everything is flawless
as i always watch you go
you always keep me breathless

we smiled, we laughed
oh... i'm hoping this will never fade

imagine

if you wonder how did things end up like we are now,
have my world
imagine

i'm living just to hear you breathing
i waited for the sun to rise
so that we can watch it sets down; together
for just another phrase, its not original
but i'm sure you can see it through
yes, i love you
just how hard it is to believe
i can promise you its true
so have my world,
imagine

inspiration :: my love <3

xoxo

titled :: no idea 08 05 2009 1649H

trying to define
what you had in mind
i wonder where'd things gone wrong
wish you'd always be mine

wanna find a way
how to make you stay
oh.. please honey please don't go
wish you'd always be mine

i can't see why
i don't ever want to let you go
and why
would you ever wanna let me go
coz everything's alright
until we had this fight
i wonder why
please, babe..
don't you ever let me go

i've been trying to sing
every word you mean
i wanna be the song for you
wish you'd always be mine

i won't ever run
when it comes undone
i know our love is true
wish you'd always be mine

please babe..
don't you ever let me go

inspiration :: GOD knows

08 MAY 2008 peter pan

you kept me up when i fall down
but you blew the stars away that i'm catching
then you climbed the moon to tell me how i'm beautiful
to be on the sun
the centre of the universe
you took my hands and leap on the rocks
take me to the fantasy
and there i am
wearing the crown of your heart
beds of roses right before me
then i started to fall, sinking
right into you

another blink of eye
made me realize
the new angel held tight in your arms
falling from the sky
there's no more tears to dry
finding a way to calm

so i play by ear
the secret song of a broken hearted girl

titled :: *shh!

its our story that doesn't start with a starter
its our story that i hoped would just never end
i wanna be in the scene
where on our way there's nothing stands
and i wish we cud stay be

another day another chapter
another smile another laughter
it is sweet when we dreamt of the future
iti s sweet when we went through the past
and it's just sweet that we're still here in the present

no more pretend
i let you wander around the truth
for you to see me just through

another frown stays on you forehead
your eyes looked down and i finally said
"hold me baby, i got my trust on you"
and then we hold hands and things got intense
sudden silence but we both understand

30/04/2008

I've never seen the sky so blue
until the day comes when we meet again
back then it was me and you
only the oceans are blue but the sky was gray
so the waves go waving along the sand
now it's a we, an us and nothing stands
on our way to survive this
we kept it long ago but it didn't just go
it stays until we get the first kiss
we were broken by those who let us go
but we've never known the bliss existed between us
we were there for each other
i cried on your shoulder and you cried on mine


its not that i wanna spell it out for you
but just yesterday i woke up
and suddenly felt like calling you
i realized by then
that i was made for you

stay away

i care for the one i love
i care for the one i need
i care for the one..the chosen one
we lived today as we met
we dried tears with our sweet laughs
we kissed the pain away when we locked our smiles
end it please with a never ending bliss
oh..agony. stay away from our heaven
we dare not to burn it to ashes
we dare not to make it final
as we are dreaming our hearts, its obvious

O LORD..dun make our senses dried of happiness
so that we cud get the the signal
until then
we dare not to make it final